and today we came home. it's new years. and i can't shake myself. its one of those days where i feel remotely nuerotic for how deeply i am feeling. or maybe nuerotic for how all over the place my feelings are today. i want 2012 to come, that's the thing. i want a new marker, i want a do over, i want to quit writing 11 on the end of dates, i want new ideas, new clothes, new conversations, new memories, new starts, blah blah blah. i want new.
what i feel sure of is i want to get out of myself a bit. i am indeed hoping for a bigger picture of life that allows me to relish more often in the sweets. The days and days of thinking of our dear friends the Kelly's helps this, its one of those reminders that life is now, life is way bigger than our row of circumstances and things get rewritten not always to our liking. i want to respond bigger. i want to respond this year more thoughtfully (oh my did i say that last year?) i want to double check what i think and know know to be true and try again to live more fully out of that. i gotta get out of the weeds. i gotta get new. Mercies new every morning Hallejuah, i'll try again.
Happy New Year. Bienviendo 2012.
(ps. fun christmas pics posted tomorrow once i can download them)