i knew it would come quickly where i would not want to tell the truth about a day. i don't like people feeling bad and i have a strong dislike for hearing my complaints. that aside, today no good. well one good.
cold, cold, cold. rainy. still feel like shoe. a follow up to getting lost multiple times was spending 1 hr and 30 mins in traffic and being about an hour late to pick up Stephen and an hour late to sign our new lease... WHICH IS the one good - we signed a LEASE!
i can't tell if it is because i feel like shoe, get lost, have no friends and live in a 600 sq. foot temp place with none of our stuff and a fridge that smells like a bad burp, but today i could not rise above. i felt like talking to me was receiving the sort of the sound that comes out of a lion just about everytime.
so my growlness really got in the way of taking joy in the lease sign and instead i found all the things that are wrong with our new place.. which i will vent out now and forever hold my peace that this will be just right for us. positivity, yessiree. it's not in the neighborhood i had gotten a wee attached to that is so fiercly hard to get a house and mostly out of our price range. the stuff in the house is neither brand new sparkly granite or totally hip vintage but somewhere in between and two of the three bedrooms are in a renovated basement. stephen and i will be lucky to get our bed and dresser in the same room. there are no skyscaper or water views.
so why you ask did we just sign the lease when i am so HM. it's our own house and MANY of the units are shared or townhouses, etc. that we liked a bit less functionally. its in a good neighborhood just unexplored by me, but two blocks from Greenlake which is sort of like a large Freedom Park for my CLT peeps. its got character. i can walk to coffee, bakery, a cool market and a row of great shops.
as you can tell i should have signed off right away, i'm too liony today. tomorrow.. mercies new every morning, all will be fine and my z-pack will kick in.
here is one pic with more to come