This could be totally lame, but today was one of those days where I neither accomplished a great deal nor rested. I circled. A lot. Literally through my house I repeated unnecessary steps trying to remember what I was setting out to do, and mentally in my head I kept repeating loops of thoughts without having a settling nature about them. I'm still not totally sure what i was supposed to remember that i didn't but I am pretty sure it was something. So, I thought, instead of vomiting chaos that is living in my body today, why not ground through some Brene Brown quotes. HAHAHAHA!

I just finished reading Rising Strong, and basically I mine as well start right back over on page one. There are a LOT of rich ideas about rumbling and reckoning. It was so rich, like the darkest velvety chocolate which actually sounds good, i think i'll go get a bite. See. Circling.

#1 The Badassery Deficit was a section in the book. Ya'll know i love made up words. This one and all that is behind it is fantastic - here is an excerpt:

"People who wade into discomfort and vulnerability and tell the truth about their stories are the real badasses. We need a critical mass of badasses who are willing to dare, fall, feel their way through tough emotion, and rise again. And we need these folks leading, modeling, and shaping culture in every capacity..."

#2 - "I spent a lot of years trying to outrun or outsmart vulnerability by making things certain and definite, black and white, good and bad. My inability to lean into the discomfort of vulnerability limited the fullness of those important experiences that are wrought with uncertainty: Love, belonging, trust, joy, and creativity to name a few."

All I can say to that is yes. True dat. I've seen the light in grey, and I'm still scared but so much freerer.

#3 It seems obvious this next one, but living it is not. It was a major aha moment with me after many years and friendships and cliques that tied my stomach all in knots had a lot to do with the knot I was already in about myself.

"The truth is: Belonging starts with self-acceptance. Your level of belonging, in fact, can never be greater than your level of self-acceptance, because believing that you're enough is what gives you the courage to be authentic, vulnerable and imperfect."

That's all for today, but that was so fun I could have carried on for hours. Just like I did all day. Cheers!