life like a child

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[/caption] Jasmine sent Hannah this beautiful tutu for her birthday. I absolutely love it. When i first opened it, I tried to think of all the dress up events that she could wear it too, and then i realized there aren't rules like that for kids, she can wear her beautiful tutu anytime. and so she does.

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[/caption] well, i am beginning to think the wonderful season of releasing was clearly connected to literally being laid out. now i feel like a vacuum is sitting on my chest sucking the life out of me not in a dramatic painful way but in a life is chaotic as hell and i can't keep up. okay that is dramatic, but point is, i feel sucked back into all the circles that keep us spinning. i find myself going and going because stopping might be scary now, i'd have to think. i am getting a glimpse of what must been meant by having childlikeness.  all the lightness of spirit and beauty of discovery that Hannah carries has really covered us this week. for days to start with this curly-haired mess that is cuddly and talkative and to end with seeing her huge imperfect teeth grin and giggles, ahhh it just hugs our hearts.  it feels like this huge gift in the middle of big grown up problems to have moments of such glee in watching her experience life. she explores and rests and enjoys and laughs. it often makes it impossible to stay mad or stressed once we allow ourselves to be with her. makes me wish i could do more of life like a child. 

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