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[/caption] happy new year. ah, 2009. what will we do? resolutions, i haven't had a chance to think on these yet. i don't think we like doing these but i do like the feeling of focus and goals. focus and goals, hmmm. i hope to stay attentive to life. i hope to allow myself the space to enter more fully into the questions haunting my head. i hope to not be so afraid of what i might think or feel for entering more fully into the questions. i hope to keep dating my husband. i hope to pick the right things for the energy i have. i hope to be a patient, thoughtful boss and kind colleague. i hope to work hard. i hope to skip all the chores and love watching every detail of hannah's growth on my days with her. i hope to focus less on each morsel that goes in my mouth and focus more on growing character. [caption id="attachment_220" align="alignright" width="200" caption="hanging with cousin drew, primer navidad!"]

[/caption] i could go on and on but those came to mind firsts. maybe i don't make resolutions because i dont want to be dissapointed when 2010 arrives and i can't check many of those off. (: the holidays - they were full. the bag stayed mixed. i savored all the days with hannah, she is changing SO fast, i am scared of what i'll miss of her tininess and thrilled for what i am getting to know about her growth. the time at the

osters was simple and great. the flights across country were um.. special. (why in the heck did i think that was going to be easy?) time with my family was complex and had some heartache. the time with jon and jaz was short but refreshing to be in the presence of such dear friends. overall, we leave the holiday season so very grateful for all we have - we are a blessed blessed family both in material and relationship. [caption id="attachment_221" align="alignleft" width="200" caption="the whole oster fam"]

[/caption] [caption id="attachment_223" align="aligncenter" width="200" caption="PH in one of his fav places, Granville Island, Vancouver with two of his fav things, snow and coffee (: "]

[/caption] [caption id="attachment_225" align="aligncenter" width="200" caption="Loved being with my sister! "]

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[/caption] [caption id="attachment_230" align="aligncenter" width="200" caption="i loved meeting you Jon & Jaz, thanks for my shirt!"]

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