that is the hardest thing about going back to work tomorrow. to know this season is ending. truly one of the greatest seasons of my life, one i never thought i would get - a maternity leave to labor and recieve a child. oh man. it seems like yesterday i was in big daddy's burger bar with my parents wishing contractions would come, and here we are and she is 11 weeks old. wow.i have no regrets in this season. it was filled with delight, discovery, fear, sleeplessness, and awe. i remember writing when we first came home that i couldn't wait to learn her and i did allow myself to really be present for her and watch her, and man has my portion come back double. what i will never forgive myself for is if i let up in this learning. she has so much more to teach me and i can't believe as we enter a different season that we will keep growing together. what a privelege. please God dont let me forget that. i wish to hold this season close, the unmatched joy of welcoming Hannah into my life. Of course i am not going anywhere, we are just entering a new season, winter and ds (double shift) let's call it.