in order to clothe myself in Truth each morning, i have to begin and be steadfast to dismiss the myths. the longer they linger in my mind the more power they can be and i have no room for myth power right now. i remember writing verses on my hand when i was little, i believe it was part of some bible study in order to memorize verses. frightening that this worked seeing how that must have meant i didn't wash my hands so much, but anywho, i regress. at this point i basically need a body tattoo of verse after verse to speak peace and life into me. I want to pursue this with another notch of understanding about who God really is to me and what i really long for in this world. small potatoes, i know.

myth #1 is that we are foolish. i feel like an idiot. i feel embarrassed. i feel like we should have been more calculated. i feel like we should have more financial backup to take any moves. Dream jobs on earth do not exist. i rank off the charts on most personality tests when it comes to responsibility. i have been accused of an overactive bend towards all things responsible at all costs. therefore, in my head, it rings that we are foolish.

So, dispel. It's not true. If hoping is idiotic then we are, if prayerful decision making is silly, then we are, if dreaming to use our skills at more and large capacity is dumb, then we are, if thinking its possible to rebuild is ridiculous, then we are. i can't stomach for one second that we are fools. i can't stomach that we felt God led us out here to show us as fools, that's just not near the nature of the God i believe in. He is not cruel like that, and i don't believe He wants us on a wild goose chase for home. So, today i dispel this strong myth #1. My God delights in us, we have not been led astray, or forgotten, and our home is not geographical at all.

i'm not sure if i have posted the pic above before or not, but i love it. and i have to go back to it, because this is the life i have to picture returns. not because of perfect calculations, but because of ceaseless prayer and hope, i think we will be throwing our arms back up in the air at Gasworks Park. In victory and with joy.

Tattoo of the day - "For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

Tattoo #2 - Because of the Lord's great love we are NOT consumed, for his compassions NEVER fail. (phew) They are new every morning, great is your faithfulness." Lamentations 3:22-23