In the morning when I rise, in the morning when I rise - Give me Jesus. I am singing this in my head and trying to wonder what of Jesus I need today. Apart from everything. I need strength of mind and the comfort of heart to trust and know that God is near and He sees the Wilson family. We do not know what today holds for us, but we have some fear and we we sense unchartered teritory to navigate. My mother is showing more signs of cognitive disruption and unease. And we head to the doctor today for scans and conversation.

What does it mean to be together in a day like this? Our frailty and our fear, our faith. How do you sleep and wake with all the unknown of the day. I fell asleep begging God for peace to rest and I wake foggy and heavy. You cannot really think through all the worst case scenarios of someone you cannot picture getting sicker and sicker. It is quite difficult to walk myself through how I will do knowing I may actually lose my mom. This in-between has been so good. I have so much more in this life that I want to do with her. and with my daughter. So here we go off unto this day, afraid and confident.