my mom warned me. half hot meals and cold coffee will soon not bother you, they will simply be caffeine and food. i didn't believe it b/c i absolutely do not drink cold coffee...until yesterday. i realize that pictures are really the deal right now and i promise i am begging PH to download more tonight so i can add them to this message. so, hannah, um, i love her. i hardly know what to say b/c i have 108 emotions a day. the strike of hormones has been "special" and i cried, like lots of free flowing tears just about everyday of the last 12. in some ways it feels so good and refreshing and in other ways i feel so silly that quite literally i could release these tears at any moment. i pray regularly that hannah know peace in her life. and so far she seems to have a really sweet spirit. we had one 48 hour stretch of hurricane hannah but we are putting that off on a growth spurt and hoping we are turning a corner and getting back to sweet times. she is eating well, weighing in at 7lbs. 11oz. yesterday which they say is great. i love her tininess and am trying to soak in these first days. two things i have been thinking: 1. Before having children, NEVER say what you will NEVER do. i laugh at myself now as i quickly realize we all make choices of what is right for our state of mind and baby's wellbeing and in two seconds cross the line of what we thought we would "never" do... we had the NEVER ideas before we knew a thing about what our baby would actually be like. 2. keep receiving the miracle. yesterday, my dear friend Kate visited with her baby girl Gwyneth. in many ways we acted like it was so normal that we were sitting there on the sofa swapping stories and holding our little girls. she left and i realized how deeply and how long my heart desired that moment with her. i didn't want to forget the miracle that i was holding my baby girl, that God blessed the longing in my heart and gave me her and i now have the privilege of sharing moments like that with my girlfriends and their children. i think i am a mom now. wow.