every week since we found out we were pregnant, i feel like i could write on this topic. my faith has truly been enlightened in many ways by this pregnancy journey. how creative and imaginative is our God? How perfectly He designs His creation. From the way the baby is made to the way she will enter the world to the way she will be fed, wow, unreal. now in the face of fascination and awe, let's also be honest, women deal with some "special" things during this body morphis of being with child. i really should have given more praise to my old body for i now know i will never see it again quite like that. its like looking at pictures from high school and wondering why on earth i wasn't kinder to myself, those were some good days. one of my favorite books is anne lamont's traveling mercies (total sidenote here is i limit my deep love for her writing to this one book of hers as i have tried many of the others and felt sorely disappointed) and a fantastic chapter is entitled the aunties. it is hilarious and i have thought of it many times in my new skin as the aunties are in fact the name she gave her thighs. their presence was so strong in her life that they were awarded a name. mine have reached this pinnacle as well and so i think i will call them ninos (to keep with my desire to always integrate the spanish). the only separation for the ninos now at this new "special" time is when i put a pillow there to sleep. otherwise they follow me everywhere making their presence known. i am sparing all of you by only talking about thighs, trust me. back to the beauty. we have now attended child birthing class, infant CPR, and breastfeeding class. if you have spent as much time in denial as me, you too will find these classes very helpful. i have been the type to try to change the topic as soon as a veteran mom launches into her childbirth story, not because its not beautiful b/c i was not in the place to receive it. people share an uncanny amount of information and advice with you when you are pregnant. which is why i won't dive into all that I learned, i will only reiterate where i started.. the design is unbelievable, i have creation fascination and i am still scared out of my wits to bring her into this world but i am comforted by the brilliance of how what i have is what she needs in the most unique of ways.